I am disturbed my by past self

We've met before, you must remember. I'm sorry that I lost control. I was distracted. But they are still talking I can hear them talk they are inside the void waiting for me before you take me. I am scared. I am scared of myself

it is all pain all pain all pain all pain all pain ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN

ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN ALL PAIN.